New.

So this is the new year, and I don't feel any different. - Death Cab for Cutie

But a lot is different. It's a new decade. It's the first time that it has been the year two-thousand and double digits, it is a new month, it's a new quarter of school for Michael and me, we will be graduating this fall, our son will be 2 this year, we will have our 3 year anniversary this year, we will be homeowners for 2 years as of 2010, my dad is a widower this year, and my husband has lost his father to ALS. Grandpa Sr. is gone. He passed away December 19th after a brave and tortuous battle. A lot is different. Come to think of it, I do feel different. I feel aged in a way. I feel the pressures and stress of life, the ware and tare of loss and grief, the aches and pains you feel while watching those you love suffering, the exhaustion of being many things at once; a wife, a mother, a student, a friend, a member of society, and just simply functional. I have lost the desire to blog, for well, almost 2 months now. Life has sucked out the life of my blogging. I can't emote anymore at the end of the day to write. Or that is how I have felt. But, this is the new year, and regardless of how I feel or what has happened and now left in 2009, I know that God's promises are new every morning. This year has wonderful things ahead too, just like 2009 had wonderful things. Like, Royal's first birthday, our second Anniversary, starting Massage Therapy school (which we both LOVE), my first girls weekend away since before I got married, friends getting married, welcoming friends newborns into the world, seeing Stevie Wonder for Michael's BD and Jackson Browne for my BD, any many other wonderful things. This year is new and that carries much hope. Here's to the new year and all the new things it will bring.